Ian

It is true that my relationship with Ian may be completely over.

It is also true that I should not have called him today, but I do not regret my decision to do so even though it was a bad decision. I would have never understood what I was doing to him because I was dense and failed to listen when I should have.

If it is over, then I will just work to be the friend he needs me to be because I love him and he deserves a supportive and good friend.

However, I do not believe it is over because I love him and he loves me and even though our relationship is different than how it was previously, I think that it can still work if we both try for it. I cannot make him try, and I will not force him to, but I will try on my end to make things work and I will have to see what happens.

I pledge all of the above and swear by them on this day until the day I die.

Also, please disregard my pathetic, completely unhelpful, selfish, and dissoriented previous blog entries from the last two weeks. I would take them down, but then I might forget all the things i have done to him.