Cheating

I picked up the phone yesterday and a voice came over it through the other end. The only thought that ran through me in that terrible horrific instance was, "YOU ARE STILL IN LOVE WITH HIM." I have been kicking myself over it for nearly 24 hours now. I feel unfaithful to Ian on so many levels sometimes, yet I have never actually done anything that would constitute cheating towards him.

On that note, here is a song I wrote for Ian about a month ago. It's called "Stones"

I wrote a song today,
Had you as my melody,
Singing your sweet chorus out to me-

I saw a photograph,
Of us long before,
Long before you ever thought
That you might truly love

It reminded me,
Of that time
we tossed stones
Into the river~

Well, why did you?
Oh, why did you have to go?

Oh, oh.

I knew you then,
Better than you knew yourself,
But you knew someone else-

Oh why did you go?
Why did you have to leave me?
Why did you have to go and run away?

I loved you more,
Than you loved yourself,
But you never loved you,
‘cause you loved someone else!

I took the photograph,
Out of the frame today,
The picture is unclear,
So I just I just threw it away.

Don’t remember that,
Day we threw stones into the river,
Don’t have the picture anymore.

And I ask myself,
Why did I have to go?
Why did I have to leave?
Why did have to go. . .
and
run away?
Run away.
Run away.
Yes, Run away!

Can’t remember that,
Day we threw stones into the river,
I think I lost the picture,
Yesterday.