Cheerless Trepidation and Woe

My Boyfriend is in the hospital right now. I am really scared for him, and when he talked to me he was seriously worried that he might be dying. I have never heard him that terrified before. Once he thought I was going to die of heat stroke in the mountains but even that did not compare to the worry in his voice tonight.

Ian is my best-friend, I love picking up the phone and seeing a picture of him holding a bikini up to himself at Walmart. I love his laugh, his smug smile, even that annoying face he makes while scrunching it up. His ridiculously smelly boots are awful, I hate those, but I love his feet.

I am kind of too stressed to type right now so I am actually just going to go ahead and finish this, but I have a Backstreet Boys song that describes how I feel about Ian. It's called "How Did I Fall In Love With You."

Remember when, we never needed each other
The best of friends like
Sister and Brother
We understood, we'd never be,
Alone

Those days are gone, and I want so much
The night is long and I need your touch
Don't know what to say
I never meant to feel this way
Don't want to be
Alone tonight

[chorus:]
What can I do, to make it right
Falling so hard so fast this time
What did I say, what did you do?
How did I fall in love with you?

I hear your voice
And I start to tremble
Brings back the child that, I resemble

I cannot pretend, that we can still be friends
Don't want to be,
Alone tonight

[chorus:]
What can I do, to make it right
Falling so hard so fast this time
What did I say, what did you do?
How did I fall in love with you?

[Bridge:]
Oh I want to say this right
And it has to be tonight
Just need you to know, oh yeah

I don't want to live this life
I don't want to say goodbye
With you I wanna spend
The rest of my life

[chorus:]
What can I do, to make it right
Falling so hard so fast this time
What did I say, what did you do?
How did I fall in love with you?

What can I do, to make it right
Falling so hard so fast this time
Everything's changed, we never knew

How did I fall,
in love,
with you?