Thank You For Gatorade

I am currently rehydrating. All week I have been very low on it. For a while I just stopped caring. Which is, of course, bad.

I realized today that I am totally in love with Ian. I mean, enough to grow up for him. I was really hurt, but instead of continuing the pain for both of us, I finally just did something about. I had thought (immaturely so) that being the first to apologize and coming up with a solution would mean I had given up, but it actually was the harder thing to do. I love Ian.

I think that in another year and a half, I will most likely be sitting with him in an apartment, dogs at our feet, just reflecting on how much we love our life. I will no doubt reread this blog at some point and say the exact same thing about Ian that I did about Gatorade today.

He refuels me, he saves my life, without him I wither and die. He is my life force.

I had to let go of my past feelings about Matt. I realized that they were like Charlie Horse Time, just a memory, not something I still felt, or needed to. I miss it like. . .karate. Overall, I am better without it, because I am alive.

Only one more week.

SEMESTER IS OVER! I have three finals on Monday, so I am going to go nap, workout, then study. I have no choice but to do so. I think that I will study for COM 152 tonight. Anyway, talk to ya'll later. I love you.