I need to make a Ian-tine patch or Ian-nette gum

I was talking to Melinda today and I finally understood that I had a problem. I had been obsessive, oppressive, and jealous to Ian in our relationship. He was right, it had not been healthy. I was practically in a state of addiction when it came to him. It was never enough, I needed attention from him all the time, and I would get upset and hurt when I did not have it.

This week has been very hard without him for me. I feel like when I quit alcohol, or cigarettes, and I am passing the three day hump, (even though it is basically a week now).

I was really afraid of losing him. I was really stupid about it. I hope in the future I can show him that I am fine by myself and that he would be an asset to my life, and that I could be one to his. I really hurt him, and I hate myself for it.

He was right, it's not the same. This time I got it. I have a problem and there is nothing that I can do but work on it so that in the future I will not hurt the people I love with it again.