Cut off.

Ok. . .so Ian stopped talking to me. I guess I don't understand at all because the last time we spoke it seemed like we were going to be not best-friends, but at least friends.

He had said previously that he wants to hang out, but he is screening all my calls/won't return my messages and now has removed me as a friend on myspace and facebook.

I don't know if he is worried that I am trying to get him back, because I'm not. In fact, if he asked me right now to get back with him, even though I love him, I wouldn't do it.

I don't know if is just so hurt that talking to me makes it worse. I don't know if I said something to upset him the point of never wanting to speak to me again. . .

But what I really don't know is why he didn't tell me. If he asked for space I would have given it to him this weekend, but he made it seem like he still did want to hang out.

::sigh:: Just another thing to add to my list of stress right now because now I feel bad about wanting to go see Linda and Ian's Dad tomorrow because it is Easter and I do not want to upset Ian by making him see me, but I don't have a choice because he won't even call me and let me know how to avoid that situation.

I am trying to be a good friend despite the fact that he doesn't want me as a friend. . .What do I do now?

He promised to go see V for Vendetta, and now he's not coming. He told me he'd tell me if he wasn't going on the pilgrimage, and he didn't. I guess I just don't understand why when he doesn't trust me he would respond with lies. It doesn't make sense. . .and it is so unlike Ian.

He has changed so much, I guess I don't know him at all anymore and it doesn't help that he will not talk to me. I just hope that this summer he will be ok enough to hang out with our circles of friends and won't let my existance obliterate his social life.

I just wanted to try and rebuild the friendship, we had been through shit together, and we still are going through shit together, apart.

I guess I'll just go to Ian's house tomorrow and hope he isn't there when I am so that he won't have to see me. There's nothing more I can do.