Cheating On. . .Matt?

Sometimes when I am talking to Ian, I feel as though I am cheating on Matt. Even though I am no longer with Matt, the feelings I have for him sometimes show up in my relationship with Ian.

To make it worse, sometimes I think I am cheating on Ryan. . .

I am thinking about taking a nap. I am not going to, but I am thinking about it. Actually, maybe I will power nap, that would be so swell. . .

Anyway, I hope you are all doing well.

An update on me, I just finished the Order of the Phoenix, and I have to say OH MY GOD. I ordered the sixth off of amazon, and I am about to piss myself in expectation. Secondly, I have not been sleeping well. I awake worrying whether Godiva is ok, or Ian, or Dominic, and then I realize that I am not in Albuquerque. I wake up from nightmares I can't remember and I am barely sleeping any sort of reasonable time at all now just to counteract my oversleeping these past few weeks in a desperate effort to regulate my schedule. I just want to throw in the towel and have a good nap to celebrate. Damn.

Finally, I am really happy with life. I am now dating my bestfriend, and even when him and I argue, I know that I still have my bestfriend on the other end of the phone. Granted, it is my incredibly handsome and ultra romantic bestfriend, but I guess that's why I am the luckiest girl on Earth!

I hope you all have a fabulous day today!