In Regards To Matt

"Are you in love with him, or the idea of being in love with him?"-Diego Duran

I am in love with the idea of being in love with him. I am in love with having what we might have. . .of what could have been.

But things were never as good as I romantically remember them, the way I have built him into some sort of hero, despite it all. I remember Matthew clearly, and I cared so much for him. . .my heart is still smashed upon the rocks everytime I think about him. I remember the truck after graduation. . .I remember it all, probably more than he even does.